sometimes, things can be so beautiful when they are blurry. they can leave you feeling giddy with excitement of the unknown.
a blurry photo can represent a crystal clear moment that no one else would ever be able to grasp. the sunset behind the horizon could be anywhere. i know it's not.

but with blurriness there is no understanding, just a sort of teasing. and i don't know about you but to not understand something is the epitome of frustration. not in a 'i'm-being-nosy' way but in a way where to contemplate the situation makes your heart beat a bit faster. whether it's anger, sadness or bitterness.

right now, everything is blurry, it doesn't make sense. not really.
but somewhere, somehow i need to, for my own sake, find some beauty in the blurry.

i hope you feel no more pain & you have found who you are again, wherever you are right now. i miss you everyday.